I have no regrets.©


I left you, the land of my birth
With an endless ache
I was dedicated to your alleys
And to the fields of sugarcane and rice,
The red clay and the coconut palms
And the melody of the songs
Sung by women, bent double
Ankle deep picking rice–

I hear those melodies even today!

Now in a different land, with
Different laws, for different people
Power rests with the wealthy and the white.
Jungles of concrete and steel–
I wonder at the days I’ve spent
Away from the simple life of my other land!

Sometimes through laughter
At times through tears
My heart has called out
To the pictures of my land and home
Fulfilled all demands of desire
Kindled every pain and cared for every sorrow.

Today, here in this land
I have no regrets over this love or that,
My heart is patient and carries all the stigma
Except remorse!©

Zakiah Sayeed.

About Zakiah

I write poetry and some fiction, have a book that was published in 2012. . . Stray Thoughts/Winged Words. I have four grandchildren, ages 16 and half to almost 16 months. I love the ocean, and grew up along the Indian Ocean in South India. I am a retired physician. Don't know much else to say. Thanks for reading. That has been my profile for so many years. My daughter Saadia a great poet and story teller, has two sons; the oldest grandson is now 21 years old, doing architectural engineering at Missouri S&T in Rolla MO. His younger brother is almost 16 and taking driving lessons seriously and is in High School. The other two grandsons, children of my son Sayeed, are 9 and 5. I have recently published another book titled Gulistan, A home of Flowers. It has stories and memories of my childhood and of a distant land which I still consider as my HOME., even though I have lived here in the US for more than fifty years. Hope to see you on my blog.
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24 Responses to I have no regrets.©

  1. slmret says:

    This is beautiful, Zakiah — no regrets, but definitely some longing! I’m so glad you were in California when you were — you saw it at its best; two weeks later and you would have seen the worst!

    • Zakiah says:

      Yeah! So true Janet! I am glad the fires are contained now. My niece in Fontana sent a video of the trees in her yard that were swaying almost to the ground with the ferocity of wind. She said that some area of her town got the fires and two homes were burnt down,

      • slmret says:

        Yes — Fontana (near Ontario) was mentioned in connection with the winds, alathough I didn’t realize that homes were destroyed there. The winds are fiercest in that area, especially as they come down the canyons.

  2. Beautiful… your words never fail to stir the heart.

    • Zakiah says:

      awww! How sweet! Thank you Mattie. I am sure your parents had to have felt the pangs of leaving their beautiful country and i am sure they longed for the beauty and simplicity of their life there.

  3. murisopsis says:

    Well said! I’m not sure I could leave everything I know behind to arrive in another country… I know you probably don’t see yourself as brave but you really are! The picture you paint of the country of your birth seeps melancholy but your embrace of the here and now make your statement of no regrets not only plausible but ring of truth and love. I hope this one makes it into your next book!

    • Zakiah says:

      Val, you just don’t know how to write the ordinary words! You always make such profound statements that touch my heart strings. Your comments always, always are so extraordinary, and so evocative, bringing out a new vision to the words that I have penned. Thank you, and again and again, thank you.

  4. I admire anyone who can begin life in a new-to-them country and thrive…so courageous, making huge sacrifices, etc.
    I think of my grandparents coming to America as children and teenagers and having to adjust.
    Your poem ignites my senses and my emotions, SweetZ! I imagine you long for the land of your birth…but, I’m so glad you are where you are…you have brought many good things with you and you have made the place you landed a better place is so many many good ways! And your children and grandchildren are making America a better place, too! 🙂
    HUGS!!! 🙂
    PS…I’m playing catch-up on WP tonight!

    • Zakiah says:

      Sweet Carolyn, i love hearing from you. You have had such a rich and wonderful childhood and it is so good that you can related to so many different moods of so many different people. It is certainly a gift to be able to feel so close emotionally. Thank you.

    • cjjustice1 says:

      I just happened to come over to WP tonight – and found 3 of my favorite people right here – you, Michel, & Zakiah! I am copying part of what I wrote to Zakiah in my reply below.
      I rarely get over here to Word Press. Six years ago, Mike and I brought my mom
      from IL to OH, to live with us – and to care for her. She just turned 95 last month.
      I do not regret in the least the time I spend caring for her. It is a blessing that I
      gladly do. Someday, I will not be as busy – and then will have time to write again
      over here on WP.
      I hope all is well with you. I am no longer recognized by your page – it’s been too
      long since I have been over to visit. — HUGS! — the other Carolyn

  5. This makes me think , Zakiah,, of your book Gulistan, where you are weaving your memories from your youth in India . This book is very moving. ❤

    • Zakiah says:

      Dear Michel,
      Thank you for such a kind and heartfelt comment. My memories of home are from my heart and soul. I am glad you can connect with them.

  6. cjjustice1 says:

    I rarely get over here to Word Press. Six years ago, Mike and I brought my mom
    from IL to OH, to live with us – and to care for her. She just turned 95 last month.
    I do not regret in the least the time I spend caring for her. It is a blessing that I
    gladly do. Someday, I will not be as busy – and then will have time to write again
    over here on WP.
    I’m so glad I came over here today . .. . how I love your poetry, Zakiah!
    You express so well the feelings of the heart. I too feel and have felt the tug
    of old, beautiful memories of my other land. The love felt for the land and the
    people will never ever die. For me also, it has been over 50 years since I
    was brought back to this country by my parents. (I also did my student teaching
    back in my other homeland. And I too can say along with you:
    “Today, here in this land
    I have no regrets over this love or that,
    My heart is patient and carries all the stigma
    Except remorse!”

    I also read your update on your profile – how old your children are now!
    Also I see that you have written another book! I have waited a long time
    to be able to see and purchase another of your books! Where can I
    purchase it?

    With love always to a great friend,

  7. Zakiah says:

    Dear Carolyn, Like a pearl in a shell, you dazzle me with your kind words after being hidden from my sight for months and years. Thank you so much for such a wonderful comment. I ate every bit of every word with greatest relish! I know the love you have for the Philippines. I hope you can go back sometime.
    My children are all grown up. My oldest grandson turned 21 this past April. His younger brother is a sophomore in High School. My son’s boys are nine and six years and attend the Elementary school.
    Thank you for asking about my book. It is available at Amazon and Barnes & Noble, under my maiden name Zakiah Sayeed. I hope you like it.
    Loved hearing from you. I am so proud of you for what you do, and how much you do to help your mother. You are building yourself a palace Somewhere up above for the services to your parent. Blessings to you.
    Hope your health is good. Love and hugs,

    http://www.amazon.com/author/zakiahsayeed. (if you click on this link, it will take you to my profile on Amazon and my book.) {{I think:)}}

    • cjjustice1 says:

      Dear Zakiah – Thank you so much for your kind words. You bless me so much! I went right over to Amazon and am already enjoying reading your wonderful book. I read your introduction, & then tonight, I reread the introduction, and enjoyed it so thoroughly that I will probably read it again. I am so going to enjoy taking my time – reading only a couple at a time so that I can soak it all in – and then read them again. Thank you for sharing your creative gifts with your readership. Love and Hugs – Carolyn
      Oh…. and yes, thank you for asking. My health is good. Is yours also?

  8. No regrets but longing.. I get this. Love your poems.

  9. Zakiah says:

    Love you darling. Thank you.

  10. How are you doing, SweetZ?
    Hope you are well and just busy with the good-things in life! 🙂
    Stoppin’ by with some HUGS!!! 🙂

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