Betrayal

 

You and I were one and the same.
I felt your beats, as you smiled at my breath
you wanted me to feel life, and
I played every game possible.

Respect, love and compassion
you filled in every pore of my being.
You promised me that you would
hold my hand, and let me reach giddy heights

A month ago, you betrayed me.
You let me fall, lose my dignity
not caring that I did all you’d asked me to do;
I had walked with you for miles

Played tennis and golf, and sweated
while you hammered the drums in my chest
encouraging me, cheering me on
until last month.

You clammed up!
Locked one of the doors and blocked
my entrance into your private chambers.
You gave me a heart attack……literally!

Such betrayal from a true and trusted soul mate!!

ZSA.

July 26, 2017 Written after my heart attack.

 

About Zakiah

I write poetry and some fiction, have a book that was published in 2012. . . Stray Thoughts/Winged Words. I have four grandchildren, ages 16 and half to almost 16 months. I love the ocean, and grew up along the Indian Ocean in South India. I am a retired physician. Don't know much else to say. Thanks for reading. That has been my profile for so many years. My daughter Saadia a great poet and story teller, has two sons; the oldest grandson is now 21 years old, doing architectural engineering at Missouri S&T in Rolla MO. His younger brother is almost 16 and taking driving lessons seriously and is in High School. The other two grandsons, children of my son Sayeed, are 9 and 5. I have recently published another book titled Gulistan, A home of Flowers. It has stories and memories of my childhood and of a distant land which I still consider as my HOME., even though I have lived here in the US for more than fifty years. Hope to see you on my blog.
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19 Responses to Betrayal

  1. slmret says:

    Dear Zakiah! Even your body loves you — this was a warning message so that you can continue to live on for some good long time! Love and hugs!

    • Zakiah says:

      And what a warning message that was! Phew!! Hope you received my mail.
      Every day is a new day, and the cardiac rehab lets me know that!! 🙂

      • slmret says:

        I did receive your email, and responded to it. I love the poem –your words are so very descriptive and emotion-filled! Take good care!

  2. Loved the poem and I hope you and your soul mate are feeling better.

    • Zakiah says:

      Thank you Mattie. I am feeling somewhat better. Not sure about the soul mate!! 🙂 🙂 🙂
      The plan is to get the stents placed on the 7th of August at Barnes/Jewish in St. Louis. I will be talking to the surgeon/interventionist tomorrow morning. Hope it will be easy and uneventful.

    • Zakiah says:

      Thank you darling. Will be writing about the conversation with the cardiologist/interventionist later today.

  3. mrswrangler says:

    Lovely. Glad to see you writing again

  4. Loved the poem, hated your heart “betrayed” you. Love you lots.

    • Zakiah says:

      Betrayal is a common word to me. Have had to put up with it very often. So I cannot blame the heart for what it did. Just so it won’t lose the compassion and love that I hope it has. 🙂

  5. murisopsis says:

    I’m so glad you are in good hands. My mother had stents placed and it was “a piece of cake” compared to the aortic aneurysm she had repaired (by the doctor you recommended who was absolutely “the best”)!!! I love your poem. The betrayal by our own body is so unexpected and that is what makes it all the more hurtful. Glad you survived and are implementing a plan!

    • Zakiah says:

      Thank you for the encouraging words. Ordinarily stenting is a piece of cake. But I have to be always different, it seems. I had a long talk with the interventionist yesterday. He was explaining to me about how two of them are going to attach my blood vessels from both sides of my body, sending catheters not just to my right coronary, but the partner will be sending the other one from the left Femoral also. I think I will write a post about it later today if I feel strong enough.
      I am so happy that your mother has done so well after her aneurysmectomy. My loving regards to her.

  6. Your poem, Zakiah, says so well our body is a wonder in balance . What you say about your heart I would be able to say the same about others parts of my body.
    I commented longer at the previous post and I thank Janet to warn me you were absent and with health problem.
    Love ❤
    Michel

  7. Zakiah says:

    Oh yes, Michel, I have been there and done that with other parts of my body… my knee, my back to name a couple. Thank you for your comment.

  8. Lyne's View says:

    I have been away from wordpress. I send you love and light as you process through your creative mind. (pats heart, and points to you)

  9. I love that your words (poems) flow even when you are in a fight for your life.
    And so so so glad that you survived and you and your ❤ get many more years to love and be loved!
    Contined healing wishes and prayers for you!
    (((HUGS))), too! 🙂

  10. r_hsw says:

    i love it how you able to find words to express it and do so elegantly.

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