Ramblings in the dark of the night.

 (In Other Words, Insomnia)

This night is mine I think, tonight my night comes alone to me, without her friend the moonlight; wants to keep me company, the darkness says.
I hear the crickets singing outside, and there is darkness all around me.

Can someone talk to me, explain to me about the silence and the loneliness of this night? I have shared all my thoughts and secrets with her, and often she keeps her arms around me, not saying one word.

This darkness of my night, it is fitful, it is angry, and sits in the corner staring at me. She hisses at me; there is madness all around. But this is my darkness, of my lonely night. I will put my head in her lap and try to sleep. I will hide my face in her arms and cry, and the kohl of my eyes will flow along the curves of my cheeks as tears.

This dark night, such loneliness it brings. I think she is sad too, her dearest friend the moon is nowhere to be seen and so it comes to my room and finds solace in my arms.

Such togetherness!

Sorry about the cheesy post! wink emoticon wink emoticon wink emoticon

Zakiah Sayeed. 2013.

About Zakiah

I write poetry and some fiction, have a book that was published in 2012. . . Stray Thoughts/Winged Words. I have four grandchildren, ages 16 and half to almost 16 months. I love the ocean, and grew up along the Indian Ocean in South India. I am a retired physician. Don't know much else to say. Thanks for reading. That has been my profile for so many years. My daughter Saadia a great poet and story teller, has two sons; the oldest grandson is now 21 years old, doing architectural engineering at Missouri S&T in Rolla MO. His younger brother is almost 16 and taking driving lessons seriously and is in High School. The other two grandsons, children of my son Sayeed, are 9 and 5. I have recently published another book titled Gulistan, A home of Flowers. It has stories and memories of my childhood and of a distant land which I still consider as my HOME., even though I have lived here in the US for more than fifty years. Hope to see you on my blog.
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34 Responses to Ramblings in the dark of the night.

  1. slmret says:

    Such symbiosis! The anger and fear of the darkness without the moon keep you company as you provide solace to her. That should provide enough comfort for both to sleep! A beautiful poem, Zakiah!

    • Zakiah says:

      Oops! I am sorry. I thought I had responded to all the comments. I see that I haven’t. I have been somewhat lazy and busy. I am trying to focus and write something, but life gets in the way. Hopefully I will do that soon. I am well Janet, a few hiccups here and there, but otherwise doing okay.

    • Zakiah says:

      Thank you. I am so happy every time I get a comment on my posts, and now, I feel so bad that I ignored these comments for so long. Honestly thought that I had already responded. 😉

  2. Ah… we’re both nocturnal creatures. I hope the moon comes out so you can have some sleep.

    • Zakiah says:

      I have tried every thing possible Matt. I have just given up. If only my body will be willing to get out of bed and walk about a little, write something and then get back to bed, I think that would help. But I am just too lazy to do that. 🙂

      • Maybe some soothing sounds like waves or rain? I have an app on my phone that I use and set the timer for 30 minutes. It works about 80% of the time. Some people use an air purifier at low setting and the sound from the machine seems to help.

    • Zakiah says:

      Sound of rain will be wonderful. I should look for that app. I visualize the rain and hear the drops on the leaves of the banyan trees at home, and that is very soothing. I will try and get that app. Waves of course are my weakness. I visualize them a lot too. Thank you for the comforting words. ❤ ❤ ❤

  3. As an insomniac AND moon-lover, I love this write! 🙂
    A moon lit night is less lonely for me!
    I’ve been told I’m nocturnal and vampiral. I took that as a compliment. 😉 😀
    Hope you can sleep tonight-HUGS!!! 🙂

    • Zakiah says:

      Thanks always for the kind words you leave here Carolyn. I have been remiss in my response to your comment. If I get two nights of perfect sleep in one week, then I have it good. 😉

  4. jstnotherday says:

    I didn’t think your post was cheesy…
    unless you are making a reference to the moon being made of cheese. 😉
    I loved the parenthesis with the words, ‘in other words, insomnia’. 😀
    I felt there was alot of feeling in this post. Alot of those feelings that do seem to come and haunt us in the dark hours of night. … yes, causing us to have insomnia. I usually put a light on. 🙂 and wait for the morning sun. Sometimes I sleep best as the sun is coming up. I feel safe in the light. 🙂

    • Zakiah says:

      My husband is like that. He likes to have a beam of light when he sleeps. I prefer darkness. I am glad you liked this post. I wake up very early, before the sun is up. Usually.

      • Zakiah says:

        Lynn, I think because you have not enabled the comment feature. No where on your post do I see the icon for it. Perhaps you should check that out.

    • Zakiah says:

      I went to your site to leave a comment, but couldn’t find the prompt. You want to have snow? You can get all you want from here. 😉

      • CLynn says:

        Greetings Zakiah, I wonder why you are having trouble with leaving comments on my page? I seem to rather often have trouble with WordPress. I never remember having troubles with original Xanga. I’m a big believer that simple is best. I don’t know why others can’t see things that way. 🙂
        Hope you are doing well.
        Blessings to you,
        Lynn

  5. beowulf222 says:

    That’s a really apt description of the feelings of insomnia.

  6. O night! How deep your silence is ….. ( This is a song of RAMEAUX titled the Night ).
    Zakiah, find solace in thinking the silent nights nowadays are a priviledge and above the bargain you can hear the crickets’ music!!
    This being said insomnia id awful .
    Love ❤
    Michel
    ps after my break I re-start

    • Zakiah says:

      Dear Michel,
      It is so good to see you back here. Hope your rest has done good for you. Nights can be so calming and yet, so disturbing when sleep eludes you. Unfortunately, the winter cold takes away the joy of keeping the windows open to hear the music of the crickets outside. 🙂
      Love and best regards,
      Zakiah.

  7. Not cheesy at all. I totally ‘get this’ poem and loved it.

  8. Is Zakiah’smuse gone ? 🙂 I hope you are in good health .
    Love ❤
    Michel

    • slmret says:

      I, too, have been thinking about you all weekend, and hoping you are ok!
      Janet

      • Zakiah says:

        Sorry Janet. I have no real reason for this laziness. I came to the computer with good intentions every day, but just didn’t have the focus to sit down and write something. Hopefully I will do that soon. I am sorry for this late response to your comment above.

    • Zakiah says:

      Yes, Michel, my muse had gone gallivanting for a while it seems. I have been in good health, thank you for your concern and kind thoughts.

  9. slmret says:

    I’m glad to hear that you are well — I think we must blame El Nino for the lack of focus to sit down and post here. I have felt it too, though I now have photos and ideas for 3 posts. Today, and for the rest of the week, it is summer weather here — up to 90 by the weekend, and windy in the inland areas; yet we can see snow on the mountains!

  10. Heartafire says:

    Beautiful writing!

  11. r_hsw says:

    it is NOT cheesy at all. it’s beautiful. speaking of sleeplessness, nowadays, i often find myself using ear plugs and eye mask to help me fall asleep. otherwise, the night and its quiet noise will remain to keep me up.

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