Written in the Stars

Written in the stars (Fiction Friday)

When he first saw her, he felt like he had seen the grace of God. She looked so ethereal, and radiated love and peace. He married her a few years later. The years turned to decades. He was ecstatic about the way his destiny had woven itself with her and her love.

Decades later, he looks at her, and sees her mind as a dark sea. He wants to hold her waning and waxing thoughts in the palm of his hands, but they reach strange shores while he gazes at her face. Sometimes, those thoughts are arrested, and don’t go anywhere. He knows that his stars were betraying him.

Some evenings when he has served her the dinner, she sits solemn and severe at her seat and addresses him as ‘Mr.’ or ‘Sir’. Tonight she tells him that he has to leave. She doesn’t want the neighbours to gossip about her.

He sits at the table, one hand holding her hand, and the other, holding a glass of wine. There is such deep silence in her mind, such deep grief in his mind, and a tear rolls down his cheek. He raises his glass to the love of his life, and drinks his wine and drinks his tear.

October 15, 2015 An Ode to Dementia.

About Zakiah

I write poetry and some fiction, have a book that was published in 2012. . . Stray Thoughts/Winged Words. I have four grandchildren, ages 16 and half to almost 16 months. I love the ocean, and grew up along the Indian Ocean in South India. I am a retired physician. Don't know much else to say. Thanks for reading. That has been my profile for so many years. My daughter Saadia a great poet and story teller, has two sons; the oldest grandson is now 21 years old, doing architectural engineering at Missouri S&T in Rolla MO. His younger brother is almost 16 and taking driving lessons seriously and is in High School. The other two grandsons, children of my son Sayeed, are 9 and 5. I have recently published another book titled Gulistan, A home of Flowers. It has stories and memories of my childhood and of a distant land which I still consider as my HOME., even though I have lived here in the US for more than fifty years. Hope to see you on my blog.
This entry was posted in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink.

17 Responses to Written in the Stars

  1. sunsetdragon says:

    This so touches my heart. You have captured the feeling of having a loved one with dementia who no longer knows you, or at times does not know you. Each tim amy husband got into that zone I wait, and pray and so far, thank goodness, he has come back and does not even know that he had left.
    These words you wrote says it so beautifully. TY.

    • Zakiah says:

      I am sorry you go through these periods with TD, Ruthie. I am sorry. I see so many patients and their families go through these phases. I read so many journals with this problematic disease. I feel so bad for the families. The patients fortunately do not know or understand this, but the families feel the agony of losing the patient and watching them die in their brains. Love and hugs to you.

  2. slmret says:

    A very tender ‘ode’ to the ravages of dementia, Zakiah! Beautifully written.

    • Zakiah says:

      Thank you Janet. I hope you are doing well. The prompt, “written in the Stars” was mine for the Fiction Friday group (all xangans) in facebook. I had read a poem written by a man about his wife some time back, and it has stayed with me. I don’t remember when I had read it. but this was the gist of it. I elaborated some thoughts. It is such a sad disease.

  3. mrswrangler says:

    Made me cry. Reminds me of a time when grandpa had Alzheimers and he kept pointing his finger at grandma going she she she.

  4. This is so well written and so poignant, SweetZakiah! Thank you for sharing it with us.
    I met a couple and she had dementia. She always was dressed nicely, with hair and makeup done. One day I asked him about that and come to find out HE did her hair and makeup. He said, “she always wanted to look nice and now that she has no concept of that, I do it for her.” I was brought to tears. How wonderful for him to know that she would care about how she looked and so he made sure she looked good. 🙂

  5. rudyhou says:

    sometimes i get frustrated when my father forgets things, which quite often. i wonder if i would be able to have the same patience as the man in the story to face the scary possibility of my parents forgetting things more and more since they are getting older.

    • Zakiah says:

      You will Rudy. Knowing you like I do from the pages of xanga, and here, I think you are a compassionate person, and will take care of your parents with love and humility. I hope you don’t have to face that event ever, but in the remote chance that you might, I am sure you will bring your know how and resources to the front and help them.

  6. Wow Such a wonderful piece on Alzheimer’s. My grandmother had dementia and my grandaddy loved and took care of her til the end. It was a beautiful thing to watch. .

  7. Your clever pen males us understand the sadness of dementia breaking not only love but also the personality of a man .
    This is heartbreaking.
    Love ❤

    • Zakiah says:

      Dear Michel,
      I am so glad you were able to take time off to read this. I thank you most sincerely. Hopefully I will post something more joyous in the near future.
      Love, ❤

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s