When she was little, she was so fat and cuddly. Her body was so beautiful. Her eyes sparkled every time she would say something. And she smiled, all the time! Even while swimming she would smile, much to the chagrin of her instructor. She was always trying to smooth things for others. Whenever she would see me down because of work or news from home she would sit in my lap and tell me a joke, or just kiss my tears away. She was precious like that. She still is.
She grew up and married a prince from the same town. He was handsome beyond words, and people always commented about their beauty and the dedication they had for each other. They had beautiful boys, Noah and Davis.
Recently, in the past month or so we have heard that the prince my daughter married, has advanced prostate cancer. It has metastasized to a couple of bones. My beautiful daughter, my Saadia, whose eyes smiled always, now shine with unshed tears. She continues to be bold, strong and positive, just as her husband Dave is. They are putting on such a beautiful positive front. Her attitude makes me ashamed of my weakness. They are so strong for their children, and continue to laugh and do all the things they generally do with them. They hide their fear and worry behind masks of laughter and chatter, this makes my knees buckle.
My days, my nights are full of prayers for the well-being for Dave. Every breath I take, is an ache trying to reach the heavens, asking for mercy for my son in law. Every heart beat in my chest, is crying for reversal of the problem so that my body could take all that Dave is suffering. I wish I could sacrifice my life to save his. I pray and pray and pray that he gets to have my age, and that he will enjoy the growth and accomplishments of his children.
Two weeks back Dave started Hormonal therapy and because the bone pain is not going down any, he will start radiation on Monday. With my head bowed, I ask for grace from The Almighty, to give him comfort and let him lead many years of pain free life. I have had multiple melt downs, while praying, while lying awake in all the hours of the night, and while driving. There is a constant tremor in my heart, and I read the Holy Qur’an and feel some relief.
I just couldn’t bring myself to write about this on Xanga or WordPress until now. Dear friends have written and asked about my silence. So finally I thought that I would let everyone know what was going on in our life. I have asked relatives and friends around the world to pray for Dave’s health. May I please ask for your prayers too? Who knows whose sincere prayer will touch the heart of The Almighty and that prayer is accepted and answered. I pray that the treatment eradicates the cancer, and he becomes comfortable with no pain in his body. I would be indebted to you if you could please remember him in your prayers and keep him in your happy and positive thoughts.